its like poison in my veins, flooding into every sinew. i cant take this feeling, it drives me insane. uncontrollable. how do i keep myself in this? how do i trust myself if i cant trust anyone else? who else is there to trust? SHOULD i even trust anyone at all? should it just be me? its like im dying in this bottled up anger and i dont know why im even in it. i should let it all go and stop caring about anything. im drowning in feelings i cant understand or explain. i hate myself. i hate everyone. i hate you. but somehow theres still love in every little miniature hatred. Why do i put up with all this? how could things ever go my way while im in this? my heart feels like someone slashed a thin cut across it and left it to bleed. it hurts so bad. i dont know how i can take this.

im making a new xanga. those of you i wish to know what it is, will be informed.

"Colors"

Can you feel it crush you does it seem to bring the worst in you out
There's no running away from these things that hold you down
Do they complicate you because they make you feel like this
of all the colors that you've shine this is surely not your best

But you should know these colors that you're shining are

[Chorus - x2:]
Surely not the best colors that you shine

I know you feel alone yeah and no one else can figure you out
But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down
Well they'd love to save you don't you know they love to see you smile
But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style

[Chorus - x2]

I know you feel alone yeah and no one else can figure you out
But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down
Well they'd love to save you don't you know they love to see you smile
But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style

But you should know these colors that you're shining are

[Chorus - x2]

Surley not the best..
(I know your feeling like your lost)
Colors that you shine..
(but you should know these Colors that your shining are)
Surley not the best..
(I know your feeling like your lost you feel you`ve drifted way to far)
Did you know these colors that your shinin are..